This photo has literally nothing to do with my post, I just thought it looked cool (lol). A few months ago, I lost interest in astrology almost completely. I’ve been doing a lot of energy work this year, practicing daily techniques that put me more in my body and less in my brain. I feel like that probably has a lot to do with my interest disappearing.
I think astrology is for me, in large part, a brain function. I think I was using it to categorize and explain, to identify a pattern which is the brain’s way of attempting to predict and try to keep us safe from danger. But that is not thriving in my opinion, that is just survival.
I think I used astrology since childhood as a way of making sense of things and feeling safe. There is security in a system, which I needed…I felt scared a lot, life felt chaotic and many of the adults around me felt dangerous.. I didn’t have much to hold on to, and astrology filled that void. I remember looking at my own natal chart in Placidus as a kid, they used wide orbs so I had a grand Fire trine right in the middle, a perfect isosceles triangle and it just made me feel so special and worthy for whatever reason.
I really just don’t want to keep people in this disempowered state anymore by perpetuating a system that works on cycles. At first, it is empowering to realize you can start something new with great success during a new moon phase, right? Then you do it a few times and see results and you feel really powerful. But then you may start to believe you can ONLY initiate during that phase. It can become a game with rules you must follow, much like the one I believe we live in called shared reality.
I don’t feel I can be a part of that anymore. Perhaps I will change my mind when transiting Saturn and Pluto stop squaring my sun though, I dunno 😛